this rip was uploaded on November 6th, 9:26 pm EST Scheduled for 9:15 pm on November 8th. If you're reading this, I'm gone. I always wanted to make this rip since I got into fl., it just feels so satisfactory that it finally happened. anyways, you're not here for that. you must be wondering why? Why? well. For a long time now I've been using my internet computer persona "Zapy" to mask away my insecurities as in general, life is saddening and stressful and I really didn't want anyone to have that aura of my life invade theirs. All I wanted to do was make people smile and I hope I've done that. As usual, using a persona to mask your insecurities away eventually gets cracks within it. It's stupid anyways having a persona as an alive computer being controlled by a fucking emo soy boy out of all things. I guess there could be analogy in that. Life finally caught up to me, stress, anxiety and general sadness has brought upon a multitude of problems with myself wise. One of these came down to the point where my anxiety was hurting my physically and I've just decided not to feel anymore. If.. I somehow survive or idk man.. a miracle happens, I'll be back. I promise. I'm sorry, I just can't handle it anymore although I have a long range of people who love me. To any person who is a viewer, I'm sorry you came across this rip anyways. To my friends, thank you. thank you for being there when it really matters. To the Lagsmbh team, thank you for being patient with my ripping journey, I really enjoyed ripping and making only the best jokes with you. To ytp4life, honestly, thanks for endorsing me in silvagunner fanchannels. I wouldn't have made such great rips without certain people and you. To Diego. I love you, thank you for your time and being generally one of the best people I met. To Zerk, Thank you for being a very long-term friend no matter what happened. In all, I thank anyone who has done positive for my life and I'm happy if this is the last thing you hear from me and or read. Even if it is off-key, but hey... it's a 34landon2 maker upload and you probably skimmed through this anyways. Read the channel description and Don't Forget. ❤️ - Landon/Zapy this description was updated on 2023, November 10th. hi guys. I'm ok now. I'm sorry I did this. love you. :3 please ignore this harsh past and enjoy the mashup fusion.